After a scare with the Jetta (out of oil, starting difficult), it’s been a wonderful day on the coast. Cool, brilliant sun, slight breeze…a perfect summer day. I have decided that change is necessary right now. I’ve dug myself into a rut and making myself miserable in the process. When that happens, I become tense and nervous and I can’t relax. (cue Talking Heads) I have discovered that walking helps. I’ve taken to carrying the camera with me and have been taking random shot of buildings, people, and such while wandering around town. Allowing the creative juices to flow helps me get outside myself. It’s fun.
The other change necessary is I need to begin to set goals for myself. This is the challenging part. I have never been one to set goals. Short-term, long-term, corner kicks..no goals. Because I’ve never set goals for myself I haven’t properly motivated myself. No goals = no ambition. There is so much that I want to do in life. I’ve started a bucket list of things I want to accomplish. From the realistic, like traveling to all 50 states to the next-to-impossible, like attending The Masters golf tournament. But anything is possible – I could go to The Masters, despite the sale of tickets has been frozen since Nixon was president. I could enter the lottery to purchase practice round tickets. It doesn’t hurt to try. That’s the attitude I need to maintain.
I plan to take this slowly, setting smaller daily goals to achieve. I’ll work my way up to bigger challenges. But this is necessary so that I can break out of this funk. I need to concentrate on me, take care of me. I need to be gentle with myself when I have tough days or when circumstances aren’t what I expected. Having patience with myself will also allow me to be gentle.